If Dee's walls could talk, I would move out immediately, but you'd want to move in! I have an opinion, and I'm not afraid to use it! Be sure to view older posts if you haven't stopped by in a while!
There’s a lot of new stuff going on in my life these days. I’m definitely out of my comfort zone. I don’t know what the next step is or where God is leading. I just know He is.
I have found my voice. I have always been concerned about all of my friends and loved ones. You might say that we all are, however I have always been SUPER-CONCERNED. If you tell me about a problem, I will not only assist you in solving it, but I will stay on the mission until it is completed.
But this year, 2013, I realized that not one single, solitary living soul has done that for me. My family is virtually non-existent, and even before my brother’s deaths and my mom’s disability, they didn’t love me that way. No tears over here. I tell you this only because it is the root of my love-overcompensation. In friendships and relationships, I loved more when others loved less. When I finally felt the same type of love in return, I questioned it, and then tested its limits.
Now, I know exactly what types of friendships and relationships feed me, and what types leave me feeling empty. I’m waiting for God to give me what I need. He knows the desires of my heart, and has always provided for me better than I can imagine.
I’m striving to stop asking how and when. I just need to know the One who knows the how and when.
I am absolutely certain that I am where I am because God has led me here. I am intimidated, but not fearful. I am unsure, but not scared. I am honored that He has chosen me, but not arrogant.
Lord, continue to develop in me a heart that is not impressed with me, or any others around me. Let me only be impressed with You.